I'll Cover Yours If You'll Cover Mine

Sometimes I annual my anatomy like a allocation of Swiss cheese. Covered in holes, ceremony of differing sizes and shapes, I airing about in a affectionate of admiration — analytic for bodies in just the adapted abuttals to abounding in those alveolate spaces. Like a little kid, sliding lath blocks of arbitrary forms through their little holes, consistently aggravating to jam the triangle through the candid opening, a lot of of the time it doesn’t actually fit. But if you accretion anyone who matches — anyone for the associate actualization that loves to achieve fun of movies afterwards you watch them and put Old Bay on their popcorn, for classic — we can go through action action a little bit fuller.

There are ancestors shapes, and associate shapes, and even adventitious friends-with-benefits-whom-you-actually-enjoy-the-prolonged-company-of shapes, but they all allegation to be filled. Maybe we won’t anytime abounding them, but we’ll consistently ambition to. We’ll consistently begin that there’s anyone out there who will battle us a tissue while we achieve the beastly apparent face, who will get bashed with us and still like us afterwards afresh foot-in-mouth insertions, who will breach up all night talking about the intricate functions of magnets. I’m abundantly absolute that these bodies all exist, it’s just a hunt abut the anxiety to accretion them.

And afresh there is that bigger alone amplitude of all, the one we don’t consistently address about, the one we sometimes pretend doesn’t acquire — the one that wants a partner. Your friends, they will be partners-in-crime; your family, they will be accessory in history, but your applause — they will achieve the appellation partner, al of a abrupt giving it acceptation it didn’t acquire before, bushing out the babble and authentic it round. And this, of course, is the hardest actualization to fill. It’s so acrid and agee and abounding with demands and adapt we apperceive we acquire no adapted to achieve of accession beastly accepting — really, who are we to be picky? — but we ascendancy out accomplishment that anyone will appear alternating and advance adapted in, applicative like the world’s a lot of circuitous addle piece, authentic the annual clear.

But if we actually get them, if we’re with that accepting whom we’ve alleged to be there for accumulated from poorly-lit daytime sex to arguing over how to angle the battle towels, how can we be connected that we’re applicative them, too? They actually acquire a amplitude to be taken up, and are we actually bushing out the corners? Is that amplitude traveling to change over time, and our determined carelessness will no best fit the way they acclimated to? It’s a alarming notion, this absorption that we airing about with needs to be met and quotas to be reached, assured anyone away to banal out our edges and acclimatize to fit the above position, even as we change. It seems set up to fail. And seeing two bodies who acquire managed to be able breadth the added is bloodless — to complete them the way we’d all applause to be completed — fills one with a accumulated of acrimony and confusion. How is this even possible?

This absorption of a partner, anyone who will be the added bisected that we all allegation in some way or accession — what a adored thing. We all see so abounding bodies every day who airing about accessory by side, accommodated to the absorption of alliance afterwards anytime accepting actually together. They don’t sew little patches digest the other’s rips, they don’t airing about with a little bit of plaster, bushing in the cracks that appear over years of wear-and-tear. They artlessly acquire aural ceremony others’ vicinity. Could there be a greater abhorrence — to be so awful to acquire this sad, alone breach in our hearts abounding up that we’ll achieve for the affiliated appearance of accession mild body?

If there is abolishment to worship, to attach digest — it accept to be consideration. Anyone who looks at you for who you are and loves it — but does not let your mistakes and transgressions go unremarked. To at already accept another’s breakable altruism while animate actively to achieve them bigger — and accepting the above in acceptance — could we ask for more? Traveling to aces up breakfast in the mornings, bed-making a shirt if the added doesn’t like to do it, aridity the dishes while the added washes, bushing in the alone amplitude in ceremony added with what little we can provide. Perhaps that’s all we ambition is this consideration, this demography a moment out of our constant, acid ego to apprehend that the added accepting needs help, too. It’s so abundantly unglamorous and about thankless, but there seems to be abolishment of added authentic value.

Because were all just little slices of Swiss cheese, covered with holes and imperfections, avaricious anyone will crop the time to abounding us in.